I had a really crap Wednesday. There is still flu going around this house, and there is big weather changes in the UK and everyone seems to be sick! It's suddenly cold horrid depressing Winter lol. God Autumn only starts officially today.
Anyway my parents said I could cancel the hospital crap on Thursday. But that made me more depressed, like I am a loser and a failure. I phoned up and tried to cancel this appointment and they would not let me, which I find entirely stupid. Surely then people will just not turn up and then there will be new news stories about how much it cost's the NHS (National Health Service) in cancelled appointments a year. In the end my mum phoned up and spoke to the phone biatch.
I think they are doing this to persuade me to go to a hospital clinic which specialises in my illness. They got a referral, but there is a waiting list of a year! (possibly cos it's alleged that 1 in 4 absences in people under 21 is cos of my illness- which freaks me out!). The Hospital is the other side of London and I think it would be impossible for me to get there.
Also I don't personally see what I will get out of it. It's not a instant healing centre and talking to people who go and reading books, it's nothing you cannot find out on the net at organisations. It's not a cure. Just ideas and etc. Some of the clinics have a much darker side, suggesting "enforced exercise" and electric shock treatment, will "shake someone out of it". Some Dr's have proved this to be far worse for people.
It amazes me this century, some people are practically tortured in clinics!
Anyway so it was a crap day, I cried a lot and had the flu and had pains, and it was bad. But Thurs and Fri were better. Now I am just worried that no one is looking at my seizure stuff, but my own Dr (GP) put me on the medicine for them, so I dunno why I have to keep going to a Neurology Consultant. Last time I saw him he was rude and had no understanding on my illness whatsoever, and I guess he is just interested in brains. He said stuff about losing weight and etc, and my GP last Monday when he visited, said something completly different. I am over-weight, but I am not increasing in weight, it is static, and he was saying that it would be hard to exercise at the moment. I would have to like cut down food, but I lovvvvve food, I guess I am happy really at the moment.
I hate hospitals, they just do more and more to search for something. I guess I should be pleased I don't have anything wrong, like scissors left in my stomach or something.
I wrote my interests seriously finally ;) I stole some from Kenster, cos we have exactly the same interests in everything, which is freaky lol. If you know me and I have left off some vital thing about me, yell at me. I always go blank when trying to think what I like lol.
The weekend has so started....