I had the first counselling crap thingy a few weeks ago and it went okay, and I coped okay but felt depressed a bit at the end, because they would find me a therapist now (after the evaluation) and I have to go like every week argh, for a minimum of 6 weeks.
So tomorrow at 12pm, is my first appointment, with some guy called Tim. He sounds scary on the phone. Scary in a old man way. I bet he has a beard!
eugh I really DON'T wanna go, but I will go and I should go to the first one. If I really hate it, I can never go again muhahaha.
As D said to me, the irony is getting support for anxiety, and most people are too anxious to get it, like me! argh. I don't think they can help me at all and I am improving myself.
I have so much stuff I have done to write in my journal.
I just want it to be tomorrow afternoon, afterwards!
I hate anxiety and panic :(