Sunday was REALLY bad during the day, and I did not feel like going online and talking to anyone!
I got picked up at about 11:45pm, we were travelling at night, after Catherine & Stu had done a gig.
I really wanted to cancel the whole thing and pull out of it.
I went to many websites online and there was a lot of good stuff about "coping with panic". Basically with steps of relaxation and that its not a real thing. It's just a fear. Fear's are real but they are not like a virus in the body.
We set off and I felt ill at first and not been on a motorway since 1996, but we speeded down and got to Bournemouth really fast really. It took about 2 hours. Went to bed at about 4:40am.
Woke up today and was doing okay. Did not really do all that much today. I felt really unwell and with bad headaches and stuff at various points. I really wanted to phone my parents and say pick me up and take me home!
But I feel a little better now, and there is a full day left and then meet my parents to go home on Wednesday.
Their flat is really nice and gorgeous, and walked along the beach today which is about 5 minutes walk away from their house. But it was night and it was dark. There was loads of hot good-looking men though.
I keep thinking that I left something on bad at home, and it's burned down. The cats are still there being looked after by someone.
But I am doin okay, and am tired and a little unwell but got there and stuff and there was loads of achievements for me!
speak to you all soon :)